Feelings...

So... Travis hates me again. This works out more than perfectly because I wanted him out of my life anyway. He opened the door and did all the work for me. Except, now he is telling Dorrian that I've been trying to be friends with him again. This is making Dorrian upset and, I think, jealous and is causing him to pull away from talking to me. I don't want any of that. Unfortunately, I didn't crack what was going on until today. It's been a couple weeks now that Dorrian hasn't talked to me. So now that I have this new revelation, I want to hunt Travis down and tape his mouth closed with heavy duty duct tape. He lives in Iowa so this can't really happen but I want it to. The amount of time and effort he puts into things is astounding. He is sitting here telling Dorrian that he needs to drop me because I'm some lying bad person. After all that I have done for Travis. He's going to have the guts to do this? Uh. No. Not happening. I'm setting things straight with Dorrian. If he believes me then he does, and if not, then he never trusted me anyway and it never would've worked between us. This is why I decided to title this post as feelings. I'm venting. This is where things like this can be posted. I feel angry at Travis for doing this to me. I am upset and sad that Dorrian would think I would do the things that Travis says I'm doing. He is completely wrong in the matter. I don't understand what drives people to want to poison someone else's mind to get ahead and be friends with them. Why would you want a friendship set up on lies? The effort it takes to maintain that for the rest of your friendship with that person would be exhausting. Chelsey was the exact same way. She would feed people bad things about other people to become closer to them and seem more loyal to them. Then she'd get caught and the friend they thought she was would be destroyed and she'd be right back to where she was, alone. How do I find friends like this? Or does this happen to everyone? I just want to have genuine friends that are good to me and don't try to stab me in the back. My life has enough stress and I did all the drama crap in high school... now it's time to get lives and move on with things. Stop being caught up in each other and get on with your life. We can't progress if we are stuck in a high school maturity level. I just can't stand people that hurt me this way. I care too much as it is and when I get attacked like this, it makes it so much worse. Its hard for me not to care about my friends or people that I thought were my friends. When they do me wrong, at first I'm mad and wanting to beat them up. After a while of thinking on it, I want to talk to them. I want to know why they would do something like that to me. I want to know their reasoning behind why they are doing the things they are doing. What are they gaining from what they did? Anything? I didn't think so. I. Hate. Drama. and some boys.

All Better!!

So my throat is sooo much better this week!!! Thank goodness! I have been taking my medicine (when i remember) and sort of resting. :)

This week is going to be amazing because I have a total of 5 friends that are getting married this weekend!! Lauren & Travis Whiting, Alli & Scott Muntz, Aubree & Nick Merrill, Thomas & Sharon Cook, and Karrin & Michael Foster!! These are all wonderful brides and grooms and I can't wait to see them on their big day!!

Work is still going... it's getting busy because now we have a whole new set of new product coming within the next couple weeks so I'm trying to find images and prices to get it all up!

Dating is still non-existent... but I'm keeping my chin up and talking to people (guys) and doing my thing waiting to find one that catches my attention.

Dallas starts school again next week!! Yes!! He's been so bored sitting at home doing nothing all summer so it will be awesome for him to get out and see real people! He still needs to find a job, which means he needs to be looking and isn't so that's his fault. As soon as he gets a job and can pay for the gas and stuff, he can go get his permit and eventually his license!! Then he can run all our errands. :) it's still kind of scary to think that he's old enough to be taking our cars and be driving around town. It's good for him though. It'll teach him responsibility with money and the cars. I know that helped me learn really quick!

my tonsils

So for the last two weeks I've been fighting with my tonsils trying to get them to not be swollen. I have tonsillitis for 2 weeks now. I did 5 days of prescription last week and now I'm starting another one tomorrow. This one is a pill I take 3 times a day for 7 days. Hopefully that will kick the infection and my tonsils will get back down to normal. I went into the doctor's office thinking that I was going to be leaving with a scheduled tonsillectomy for later this week. When the doctor told me that I was going to be getting more medication and not making an appointment with a surgeon, I wasn't sure if this was good news or bad news. I want them out so they are finally out of my way and I won't have to worry about having this pain again... I hate it. It's kicking my butt. So we'll have to see how this week goes.

okay we're going to try this for real now

So i have had this blog for a really long time and never have taken the time to update it or anything... so here we go. :)

We have been out here in AZ since November of 2002. We love it here! We're still Kentucky kids but definitely love Arizona. We still own more UK Wildcat shirts then ASU Sundevils shirts.

Dad is working at a place that remodels Mini Vans to make them wheelchair accessible. He's been there for a few weeks now and is loving it!

Mom is still doing the whole dental assistant thing and is really good friends with the girls at work.

I am starting my second year of college. I'm attending Mesa Community College right now, I wanted to get some of my generals done and then transfer to ASU or U of A. I want to major in either Speech Pathology or ASL Interpreting. Sign language has been the best thing ever! I love learning and signing. I am working at an online scrapbook store. I've been there for a little over 3 years!! It's been so much fun! I'm an "adopted" daughter to my boss, Shari Tate and her family. I love working there alot!

Dallas is 16 and getting ready to start his junior year at Highland High School. He's so excited! No
football this year but he's in the Concert Choir!! I'm so proud of him! Concert Choir is the MoTab of high school choirs. :) they do awesome stuff. He's still looking for a job so he can finally get driving! So weird to think he's old enough for that stuff... But he is!

For those of you that knew Marsh, we lost her back in October of 2009. She passes a week before my birthday, which would've been our 13th year having her in our home. She is greatly missed and always will be. She was truly an amazing and wonderful dog. We'll have a very difficult time finding one that's close to how she was.