Birthday and days later...

My birthday was on October 13. I turned 20... how crazy is that?? another year has been added to me... 18 flew by too fast and 19 even faster... I've learned that this whole time flying thing is only going to get worse as the years go on so I want to cherish the time I have to be 20. haha

So I'll tell you how my whole birthday went.... :)
11:59 - Tanner Valentine wished me happy birthday, saying he won. haha it made me happy.
then I went to bed shortly after that and woke up to lots and lots of happy birthday posts on facebook, loved again, then I went to work. Shari took all of us out to lunch. :) she's so sweet! Then after work I went over to Colette's and we all went to dinner! Me, Tanner, Emily, Maddie, and Colette went to Kona Grill for dinner. Mom joined up later and took our whole group to the movies. :) We saw Life as We Know It with Josh Duhmal(YuM!!) and Katherine Heigl. It had everything you want in a movie. It was hilarious, then crying-your-eyes-out sad, then awww-they're-in-love happy! All the emotions a movie would love to achieve! My birthday was amazing because I had a small group of friends with me all day that I absolutely love with me all day. I don't love huge parties with lots of people because then there is separation and clicks and it's hard to juggle all of them and be a good host. So having small things like that are the best for me. :)

Life since then has been a rollercoaster... but more ups than downs for sure. I'm not very excited to be back in school next January, I know its still a while but I don't want to go back. haha I just want to get life going. It'll be good for me though.

Other than that, I'm just livin' it up! I'm trying to get more involved with the ward and get to know more of them better. Just for Sadi... <3 hahah But it's still the same ol' thing. :) someday that man will come for me... :)

Alrighty, here's me. haha I love and appreciate all of you in my life. Very much. :)

Life as I know it...

Okay it's been a little over a month now.... So i'm not doing so hot on this whole post-fun-stories-about-your-life thing... It's a work in progress. I'm sure with my new age coming tomorrow i'll be wonderful. :)

Tomorrow I turn 20... so crazy to think. I'm not old enough to be 20 yet!! But it's coming, ready or not. I can't believe how far i've come since i just moved to AZ. I was 12 and wearing tshirts and sweats EVERYDAY. And had my hair in a ponytail/bun EVERYDAY..... Can i say i'm soo grateful that i grew up and wear cute things now? Yes. I am grateful that i grew up and wear cute things now. :)

Three more friends got engaged THIS week... yea... three friends in one week... and it's only tuesday. But it is Tuesday and that mean GLEE DAY!! I love Glee day. :) It's one of the biggest highlights of my week.

Another thing that will be new is a new ward. I'm going to try the whole ward hopping thing. I want to meet new people and get myself out there. No one in my ward is making any moves so i'm going to show them i'm not going to sit around here forever and wait for YOU to get the guts and ask me out. So there. :)

Dallas is on the trek... i really hope he's being positive and helpful. He doesn't get home til late on my birthday (tomorrow)... And he'll be tired and want to lay in bed and sleep. so i'm going to have to party without him. :]

Drama level has gone down... it's not totally gone but when will it ever be, right? So i'm working with what i have. Making new friends and keeping my relationships with old ones as strong as i can. We'll see where it takes me. :)

Much love to all of you that read my blog. <3

Feelings...

So... Travis hates me again. This works out more than perfectly because I wanted him out of my life anyway. He opened the door and did all the work for me. Except, now he is telling Dorrian that I've been trying to be friends with him again. This is making Dorrian upset and, I think, jealous and is causing him to pull away from talking to me. I don't want any of that. Unfortunately, I didn't crack what was going on until today. It's been a couple weeks now that Dorrian hasn't talked to me. So now that I have this new revelation, I want to hunt Travis down and tape his mouth closed with heavy duty duct tape. He lives in Iowa so this can't really happen but I want it to. The amount of time and effort he puts into things is astounding. He is sitting here telling Dorrian that he needs to drop me because I'm some lying bad person. After all that I have done for Travis. He's going to have the guts to do this? Uh. No. Not happening. I'm setting things straight with Dorrian. If he believes me then he does, and if not, then he never trusted me anyway and it never would've worked between us. This is why I decided to title this post as feelings. I'm venting. This is where things like this can be posted. I feel angry at Travis for doing this to me. I am upset and sad that Dorrian would think I would do the things that Travis says I'm doing. He is completely wrong in the matter. I don't understand what drives people to want to poison someone else's mind to get ahead and be friends with them. Why would you want a friendship set up on lies? The effort it takes to maintain that for the rest of your friendship with that person would be exhausting. Chelsey was the exact same way. She would feed people bad things about other people to become closer to them and seem more loyal to them. Then she'd get caught and the friend they thought she was would be destroyed and she'd be right back to where she was, alone. How do I find friends like this? Or does this happen to everyone? I just want to have genuine friends that are good to me and don't try to stab me in the back. My life has enough stress and I did all the drama crap in high school... now it's time to get lives and move on with things. Stop being caught up in each other and get on with your life. We can't progress if we are stuck in a high school maturity level. I just can't stand people that hurt me this way. I care too much as it is and when I get attacked like this, it makes it so much worse. Its hard for me not to care about my friends or people that I thought were my friends. When they do me wrong, at first I'm mad and wanting to beat them up. After a while of thinking on it, I want to talk to them. I want to know why they would do something like that to me. I want to know their reasoning behind why they are doing the things they are doing. What are they gaining from what they did? Anything? I didn't think so. I. Hate. Drama. and some boys.

All Better!!

So my throat is sooo much better this week!!! Thank goodness! I have been taking my medicine (when i remember) and sort of resting. :)

This week is going to be amazing because I have a total of 5 friends that are getting married this weekend!! Lauren & Travis Whiting, Alli & Scott Muntz, Aubree & Nick Merrill, Thomas & Sharon Cook, and Karrin & Michael Foster!! These are all wonderful brides and grooms and I can't wait to see them on their big day!!

Work is still going... it's getting busy because now we have a whole new set of new product coming within the next couple weeks so I'm trying to find images and prices to get it all up!

Dating is still non-existent... but I'm keeping my chin up and talking to people (guys) and doing my thing waiting to find one that catches my attention.

Dallas starts school again next week!! Yes!! He's been so bored sitting at home doing nothing all summer so it will be awesome for him to get out and see real people! He still needs to find a job, which means he needs to be looking and isn't so that's his fault. As soon as he gets a job and can pay for the gas and stuff, he can go get his permit and eventually his license!! Then he can run all our errands. :) it's still kind of scary to think that he's old enough to be taking our cars and be driving around town. It's good for him though. It'll teach him responsibility with money and the cars. I know that helped me learn really quick!

my tonsils

So for the last two weeks I've been fighting with my tonsils trying to get them to not be swollen. I have tonsillitis for 2 weeks now. I did 5 days of prescription last week and now I'm starting another one tomorrow. This one is a pill I take 3 times a day for 7 days. Hopefully that will kick the infection and my tonsils will get back down to normal. I went into the doctor's office thinking that I was going to be leaving with a scheduled tonsillectomy for later this week. When the doctor told me that I was going to be getting more medication and not making an appointment with a surgeon, I wasn't sure if this was good news or bad news. I want them out so they are finally out of my way and I won't have to worry about having this pain again... I hate it. It's kicking my butt. So we'll have to see how this week goes.

okay we're going to try this for real now

So i have had this blog for a really long time and never have taken the time to update it or anything... so here we go. :)

We have been out here in AZ since November of 2002. We love it here! We're still Kentucky kids but definitely love Arizona. We still own more UK Wildcat shirts then ASU Sundevils shirts.

Dad is working at a place that remodels Mini Vans to make them wheelchair accessible. He's been there for a few weeks now and is loving it!

Mom is still doing the whole dental assistant thing and is really good friends with the girls at work.

I am starting my second year of college. I'm attending Mesa Community College right now, I wanted to get some of my generals done and then transfer to ASU or U of A. I want to major in either Speech Pathology or ASL Interpreting. Sign language has been the best thing ever! I love learning and signing. I am working at an online scrapbook store. I've been there for a little over 3 years!! It's been so much fun! I'm an "adopted" daughter to my boss, Shari Tate and her family. I love working there alot!

Dallas is 16 and getting ready to start his junior year at Highland High School. He's so excited! No
football this year but he's in the Concert Choir!! I'm so proud of him! Concert Choir is the MoTab of high school choirs. :) they do awesome stuff. He's still looking for a job so he can finally get driving! So weird to think he's old enough for that stuff... But he is!

For those of you that knew Marsh, we lost her back in October of 2009. She passes a week before my birthday, which would've been our 13th year having her in our home. She is greatly missed and always will be. She was truly an amazing and wonderful dog. We'll have a very difficult time finding one that's close to how she was.